came up to the cape with this girl i have been seeing for a while. whats pathetic about this whole situation is that i never let myself get involved with girls. i lead a pretty fast life with my education and work habits and always decided it would be best to leave the oppisite sex alone as far as relationships went. From the moment i met this chick everything we have done has been perfect. i flew accross the country for her, she flew here. she has like interests, habits and personality. plus she has an amazing body. the part i can't get over is that at this point in most relationships that i've been in, i've already been happy to let the person go and continue on with what i'm doing. This isn't the case with her. it truly pains me to watch this girl slowly walk out of my life because of different roads we have to take to get where we wanna go.

basically what i'm trying to get at is even the illest players get caught up and i think i've met my match. this girl has it all for me and from what she says, i for her. usually the best part for me is letting go, but i'm finding it harder and harder to think of that. Having false motics and alterior motives in this whole situation would have made it easier, but this didn't have any of that. sometimes i feel like i'm such a moron for even getting involved, but one look on her face reminds me of how strongly i feel for her, and how much attention my car is going to get when she's gone. the universe has a way of fucking around with you and showing you glimpse's of a future that might be, or an oppertunity that you've already missed.

just a word or 2 to let all of you playas out there know it aint always easy

 

I think we need a 'dear diary' forum here.

j/k i've posted worse... and btw every playa gets wooped eventually; how many 50 year old players do you know? gotta settle down sometime.

 

I am no expert...but you may just be :ghey:

 

At least y'all aren't readin' my sad-ass shit lately.

 

nah not that. but you're right, there is a whole lot of that ish going around. not that i've got a problem with it or n e thing

 

uh, man you are still pretty young aint ya??? 19???? if thats the case... do what ya have to do....

 

19?! where did you get that # from? if you're only 19 man, don't sweat it...

 

yeah you're right. i shouldn't but i've lived above my age for so long now that its tough coming back to reality. thanks for the advice...

 

im 19...it's such a shitty age...

 

dude, i know what ur trying to say. my last girlfriend and i had a on-again, off-again type of relationshipe for five years, and i'm only 21. she broke my heart one too many times and left me out of the blue when things were at their best. she got scared and bailed while things developed further. fuck her...

u gotta put it thru ur head its HER loss and NOT yours.

the opposite of love is NOT hate. if u hate someone, u still care about enough about them to allow them to affect your life by thinking about them constantly. the opposite of love is APATHY. when they dont matter to you, you've won cuz you no longer allow them to be apart of your life. hating someone still makes u think of them. being apathetic makes u forget them.....

 

dets. at 19 i thought i lived above my age too. shit i still do... but i know better.

fact is... alot of 19yr olds live above their age so your not really living above your age your just part of a new generation with a billion other people just like u.

 

Well, you're not from around here anyways. You go "down the Cape." Don't ask me why. Its kind of like HOWston Street in NYC. It just is.

Good luck cause you're hooked bad!